Ten years have been and gone
in ten years I have grown and changed
from that scared school girl
full of depression and despair
I wish I had a crystal ball
all those years ago
to see exactly what the future held
to see our wildest dreams could come true
I never would have thought
I would be happy, strong and good
I never would have thought life
would come out the way it did
All those promises we had
now just seem so small
it seems such a waste
What was I ever worried about
If only we had a glimpse
if someone showed us what we would’ve been
maybe then you could have chosen
to live out your days with me
I can’t say it was all clean sailing
I can’t say it was all good times
but it was my life
and for this life I am grateful
So many moments have been and gone
so many moments I needed you for
I miss the way you lit the room
I miss your laugh and your smile
Through all the moments
I have felt you there
I know you are shining on me
I know you are blessing my life
All the things I have done
I wish you had the chance
The feeling of walking down the aisle
Sealing marriage with a kiss
Looking into your babies eyes
feeling their fingers grip
to hear them laugh for the first time
to sooth their crying at night
I know if you knew life would be this great
If you just held out a little longer
then we could be together
just like we always thought we would.
Written 2006
I really do look back and wish she could have just held on to her life a little longer. Things did get better and this life really was worth fighting for. I don’t know that I have fully expressed just how lucky I feel, she gave me a second chance at life and I will always be so very grateful. x